Ho Hummm

Kinda slow 'round the blogosphere and at home. Worked all weekend and screwed up my sleep schedule, sort of. Am considering some big changes, man it's time.

I spent the last 9yrs as a live-in caregiver for my friend and his mom. Met them just after coming out, and my divorce a while before that. Then, I was working literally 7 days a week to pay child support, rent and a car payment. So I moved into a tiny room of their house. A couple years after that ended, ran into them shopping and found out his Mom had a really prolonged type of Alzheimer's. She was going to an adult day program so she wouldn't be left alone while he worked, but it was costing him oodles. So I moved back with them, into their new house.

Taking care of her became full time shortly after. Child support worked out that my daughter came to stay in the house with me while she finished high school . . . no more child support. And the house is big enough, that I took in a second disabled adult as foster care. I took care of both the senior adults until they passed away last year. My daughter got married and moved out shortly before that.

But, I've been totally out of circulation all that time. Taking care of everyone else but me! And, now that I am free of obligations, free to get back out there in a real job, the economy tanks! Nobody is hiring for @#$! I've been scraping by, taking in temporary clients, for a few days or a week at a time, while their usual caregivers go on vacation or take a break. It's kept my meager bills paid, but that's it. And I am getting very discouraged, impatient, and just plain cranky.